This was not a planned blog post for me. I am not one to share my personal life and story when it doesn't have much to do with my art. This is difficult for me to share with you. This has everything to do with the pursuit of change in life and the challenge of the obstacles we face. This is something that I am compelled to share today. A new beginning can start at any time and can be accomplished by any one. This is the nature of being human, we have our own thoughts, our own minds, our own actions. Our souls are created for renewal and our bodies can do unspeakable things when our minds set forth the action.
I am speaking to myself as much as I am speaking to you.
About 5 years ago at the young age of 31, I was hospitalized. My arms and legs were in a state of paralysis, I had difficulty breathing, difficulty eating, muscle seizures and weakness had overtaken my body. My husband physically carried me in to the emergency room. I have been an athlete my entire life- at this particular time in my life I was biking 40-60 miles per week, weight training, and attending intense hot yoga sessions. I was incredibly fit- yet I was not invincible. I was stopped in my tracks by something outside my control. For the next year and a half I was in and out of doctors offices. I was poked, prodded, studied, and medicated. I had never felt so lost or so hopeless, and my mind became foggy and depressed. I prayed, my family prayed, yet I still felt like I couldn't come out of this.
I was finally given several diagnosis- one of which is a rare neuromuscular disorder that causes muscle weakness, spasms, brief bouts of paralysis, and chronic, agonizing pain. To an athlete like myself, this seemed like a death sentence. I've dealt with painful physical therapy, bouts of immobility, countless ailments that come along with this disorder. Over the last 5 years I have had to drastically change my habits because I thought I could never pursue the life that I had before. I believed that my body would never be able to accomplish the goals I had dreamed previously. I believed that I could not push forth.
I am wondering today if you BELIEVE that you cannot do something in your life? The mind is a powerful and convincing tool on our bodies.
Today is a new day for me. I no longer BELIEVE these things. Today I realize that I have accomplished so much in these last 5 years. Today I accept my barriers, yet I BELIEVE that I can overcome them. I hope that you will join in with me and choose to BELIEVE that you can start a new day too!